So how fast is 2017 going already? I can not believe March is here, it is for me a sign of spring and I can not wait!
While I was looking over our February, I realised how much I crave spring and all the freshness that comes with it. I mean who doesn’t love fresh flowers, lighter nights and the odd peaks of sun! I do!
Spring for me feels so refreshing. It can at times feel like winter is so long and such a slog, especially after Christmas, and then spring comes and brings with it hope of new and fresh things! I adore Christmas and all the cosy nights, candles and comfort food but spring just brings that freshness where eating becomes healthier, you want to be more active and days out to parks seem a dream.
~Spring is defiantly my thing~
I love all of the spring decor. I love the yellow daffodils and tulips, they are always a firm favourite and my spring go-to, and also I love using fresh lemons for decorating. These are great for styling in a bowl on your countertop or on a coffee table. I like to start adding spring wreaths to my door, i love these inside and out! I love changing some of my decor pieces to fit with the season.
Another love of spring for me is cleaning. I love the smell of christmas cleaning items with cinnamon being the base of most products, but i have to say i love packing those away and using all things fresh.
Some of my go-to products are –
~Detol lemon fresh
~Ocean fresh bleach
~Bloo toilet cleaning in blossom scent
~ Cleaning Tip~
One of my cleaning go-to products all year round is Zoflora. I use it not only by adding to water to clean my floors, but i also add two caps full into my steam cleaner and the smell is just delicious. Also I use it to refill my reed defusers because the smell is amazing, it works so well to fill any space with a fresh and clean smell. I buy packs of new reeds from Dunelm for just a few pounds.
Hope your home feels as fresh and clean as our’s heading into spring!
Over the past few weeks, I have spent time in prayer on cycles that i have in my life and cycles that need breaking in my life. One I have been so challenged on is REMAINING or some would say STICKING IT OUT.
I was having my usual morning prayer and quiet time with The Lord and I felt he gave me this scripture from John 15v 9. Now this scripture is beautiful anyway but at the end of verse 9 it says:
“now REMAIN in my love”
Over the past five years, I have had this ongoing issue with remaining and sticking it out. I love God, there is no inconsistancy with that, but whenever I feel God has said “right, time to step up” I have always stepped down.
My fear of inadiqucy and insecurity have been allowed to consume my walk with God. And the most frustrating thing is that I have let this happen. I have been so bound up in fear over the lack of confidence that I haven’t allowed God to step in and help me step up. Instead I have been stepping down.
Over the past eight or so weeks, I have been so impacted about stepping in, but please hear my heart, I am not saying I need to step in and run all at once. I am saying one step at a time – letting God lead.
While I was soaking in this scripture of John 15, it led me to feel a complete surrender of God. I want to press in, and to always dwell in his love and REMAIN in his presence forever and I want to do this with no agenda. God let me remain.
If you are reading this, I want you to know I pray for you! I write this blog because of words I feel God gives me, I seek God daily about these things and write words he puts in my heart.
I pray today that we will all learn a little more to REMAIN in his love.
God is always there waitinh for us to lean in, remain & soak up his love.
So i have not blogged in a while again as we have been away as a family and also i had my birthday. My birthday this time was an age i had dreaded for so long as I turned 30!!!!!!
While we was away my husband and our girls walked down to the shore of the beach and i was stood higher up on the stones, looking out over the sea. While i stood and looked out i began to think on my up and coming birthday and began to question what i want my 30th to be. I mean, my 20’s consisted of marraige, having children, 3 house moves, ups and downs and many memories and please dont get me wrong they were amazing years which hold some of my most precious memories but the question that kept coming to me was have i lived well?
Let me explain this question, obviously i have lived well to a certain degree as i married and had children and these things have become more than i ever dreamed, so in those moments i lived well but i am asking have i lived well outside of any event or special moment? The answer is NO! As i reflected over this i began to unravel some of my holding back and also giving up on things over the years.
As i began to pray over this question one word kept coming back to me and that was freedom! A word i very rarely use because in so many areas of my 20’s, I have been far from free.
My 20’s consisted of many highs but some also incredible lows, i lived in fear, insecurity, doubt, anxiety, depression, health and weight issues. These are just some of my lows, and as I reflected over this i realised i have a choice with these things because God calls me to live in freedom.
So as i started to journal. I began to realise i want freedom, i want to live with a life full of faith and a heart that is free! I want my 30’s to count, i want to step up instead of down, i want to believe that God has something for me and that i am not defined by my current weight, i want to pray first insted of becoming anxious and depressed. But most of all i want my 30’s to be so full of faith. I want faith to rise up in me like never before and i want freedom!
God calls us to be free. Jesus died to give us freedom!
In Psalm 118 v 5 it says,
“when hard pressed I cried to the Lord and he brought me to a spacious place”
In other words when i felt bound by things and i called out to God and he brought freedom and space.
I love God! These are two other scriptures that i love and speak about freedom, 2 corinthians 3 v 17 and John 8 v 36.
I want to have a great 30’s. I know hard times hit us all and sometimes we have to manage different situations but i am committed to living some of my best years in my 30’s with faith in my heart and in freedom!
I pray today that if you are suffering with any kind of hold backs that make you feel suffocated that God gives you freedom. I pray for chains to be broken in every area of your world. I pray for new seasons and growth in your lives.
The title of this blog is something i struggle with daily, its a saying that creeps into my thoughts more than once a day. How sad to admit that i dont want people to get close.
I was sat with my husband the other night having a chat about our goals and what we feel God is saying to us and we got on to the topic of friendships, a topic i hate with a passion. But we started talking about the fact we only really have a couple of friends in our world, and then came the crunch of the conversation and i explained why i struggle with friendships, and here it was —
“friendships always raise insecurity in me and make me feel inadiquate”.
What am i saying here? As soon as these words left my mouth i began to feel emotional. I felt sad that my longing for picnic in the parks with a large group of friends was shadowed by the fact that i need to deal with my insecurities. For me i always look and think, wow these guys are so with it and so fit and healthy, they wear trendy clothes but i always feel like i have nothing to offer. Oh how the enemy lies!
While we were in mid conversation, i realised that my lack of confidence causes my marraige at times to feel the strain. And then as a result of this me and my husband have different goals not only with friendships, but life in general.
I realised by holding onto this insecurity that i am stopping what God wants for my life, that i am only opening up the door half way, because, being honest, insecurity holds me back in all areas. But i find myself feeling like God will use everyone else, as in my mind everyone is far more gifted than me and everyone carries a greater calling than me?
When i woke this morning i felt God speak a scripture to me, Matthew 6v25-34 and if you struggle in this area I encourage you to read these verses! In this scripture it clearly says,
“I tell you, do not be anxious about your life”
And it also goes on to say about,
“is not life more than food and the body more than clothes?”
This was the eye opener for me as a lot of my insecurity comes from my weight and in actual fact God looks at the heart.
Over the past week i have been praying into the whole area of insecurity and felt God say “Insecurity is a choice” we all have it in us but its whether we let it consume us, like i have, or we choose to keep going and giving it to God daily!
John 8v32 says,
“And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
God created us in the womb, he knitted us together so why do we choose to carry insecurity? God wants us to live in freedom. He wants us to live in his truth and that is when freedom will come. God has so much more for us and we let the lies of the enemy hold us down.
I pray today that in your insecurity that God will wash you afresh with his love and his truth. I pray that his truth will become a daily choice for you and i to live in. Amen.
God wants you and he calls you for more! Keep pushing the door open even when you feel you want to close it shut.